Mismatched Mess

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I Was A Band Roadie

Modern Miracle Crammed in the third row of a vehicle hooked up to a trailer of music equipment, I rode the miles of open highway to our first destination. It was time to tour. Get out. Stretch. Divvy up hotel room beds. Then back in the third row, travelling to the gig.

It was usually a small church, or an outside venue. Sometimes we performed to a massive crowd, other times…not. Get out. Set up. Cables and guitars, drum kits and sound checks. And me. T-shirts and stickers, SD cards and tripods. I was a roadie. Girlfriend to a guitarist and absolutely crazy in love with this band.

When I became part of the Modern Miracle family, I was immediately enamored. The energy and excitement to hear their music, to see my boyfriend perform…I was inspired.

38102_412366495669_3548101_nRight out of high school with a new laptop and Photoshop Elements, just beginning my college courses on multimedia, I had the desire to create something beautiful for this band. I sat in my dorm room listening to their music on repeat attempting to create something that expressed the emotion of the lyrics. I don’t think I’d look back at my first attempts to use Photoshop without training and call it a masterpiece…but I learned to use it through my passion for this Christian band.

As my place in the family grew, I started photographing them in concerts and photo shoots. Then I started creating t-shirts and posters and banners. I became interested in re-designing their Myspace page. If anyone remembers, the classic Myspace had a lot of really great features, if you knew html. So I learned html. I spent hours perfecting their page, creating a beautiful aesthetic. I eventually began creating Myspace page layouts for several bands. I had, perhaps, a year of html experience under my belt before I first took a class on it. Through the beauty of music, I had come into my calling.

Modern Miracle

Modern Miracle was a constant source of inspiration for me. The lyrics were poetic stories ready to be unraveled, the music was a strong force to be reckoned with, the band members were a multi-talented family willing to do what it took to get their music out there. For me, the songs were worship. I felt connected to God by listening to them. And I knew my work was worship, too. I worked to create beautiful pieces of art and I worshiped God while doing it. By art, I mean Myspace layouts and t-shirt designs…but it was all for God.

Let our dancing feet set fire with the powers of your Holy Spirit.
We are anointing every word we say. Let it resonate.

I’ve never been so connected to music before or after this band. I appreciate music; the talent, the energy, the effort. There are a few bands I love. But there’s a difference.

With Modern Miracle, there was a raw passion that went straight through me. All the hours spent at band practices and concerts. The time forming bonds with each of them. The late night work sitting on my dorm bed creating. The connection my boyfriend (now husband–plot twist!) and I made when we talked about this group.

Seasons change, life happens. I wouldn’t trade anything to go back, but I do miss that time of my life. I miss the people, especially. Perhaps that’s what caused such an emotional response—having the band members there, laughing and joking; creating unique, original music. Music that held their talents and skill; their pain and joy. I didn’t just listen or watch, they didn’t just play and sing, we grew into who we are now…and we did it together.

Turn from the world. Double portion for shame.
Suffer your own cross for spiritual gain.

This was part of theWriting 101’s Blogging University. The prompt: Write about the three most important songs in your life — what do they mean to you? – (No. hehe)
All photos by me. ‘Diamond Palace’ video credit to D2S Records. Quoted lyrics are from the videos that follow them. Listen to one more song they never got to record!

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Telling A Story: The Wedding Party

We had the best wedding party! I love all of them so much and am so thankful for their supportiveness. These ladies and gents made our wedding hilarious, fun, and so much more memorable.

Memorable Moments:
My girls–Tori, Katy and Charity using all their talent and love to help me look special
Groomsman, Nathan, looking depressed in every photo
The two guys from Tay’s band, Modern Miracle, playing Modern Miracle songs on guitar and keyboard
Best Man, Zack’s amazing speech which meant the world to us
My girls and I scrunched up on a couch that was next to a window which gave us the perfect view of the guests finding seats outside

Don’t forget our wonderful flowers girls and ring bearer–my two second cousins from my mom’s side and my little brother. They were awesome!

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Ah, January as flown right by us, hasn’t it?

Although February is just a day away, why does it seem like my classes are just dragging by? My classes have gotten such a slow start. And it’s unfortunate to say that I’m not that interested in any of the subjects I’m taking. However all three of the classes (I have four classes, but one is an intro. class I have to take and I don’t have to go to class, just check in) are important and directly related to my major; Adobe InDesign–perfect for magazine spreads, Adobe Captivate–similar to PowerPoint but more in depth, and Digital Video–records and edits video. Yikes. All three are important—they’re just different from my photoshop so I’m being lazy about wanting to learn them. Ah well….

So on the coldest day of January (literally!) I attempted a photoshoot with Modern Miracle. It was a rather unfortunate photoshoot. It was so cold and I wasn’t making any progress!! I got literally 4 or 5 photos that are temporarily “useable.” As soon as the weather warms we’ll attempt another photoshoot!

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Happy Birthday Cookie Monster!

It’s November and this month is FULL of fun holidays and birthdays and I’m going to celebrate a different weird and fun holiday everyday this month and post it on this blog!

November 2: Cookie Monster’s Birthday!

Happy Birthday Cookie Monster!


Cookie Monster is a fictional Muppet character on the children’s television show Sesame Street. He is best known for his voracious appetitehowever, as his name suggests, his preferred food is cookies. Chocolate chip cookies are his favorite kind; oatmeal cookies are his second favorite. In a song in 2004, Cookie Monster revealed that, before he ate his first cookie, he believes his name was Sid. and his famous eating phrases: “Me want cookie!”, “Me eat cookie!”, and “Om Nom nom nom” (said through a mouth full of food). He often eats anything and everything, Showing awareness of healthy eating habits for children, since 2006 he has said that cookies are “a sometime snack” and that he also likes fruits and eggplant.

He is known to have a mother, a younger sister, and an identically-designed cousin, who all share his characteristic blue fur and “googly eyes“.


You should celebrate too! Every day is cause for celebration! (and post pics if you do) Celebrate with me tomorrow for Sandwich Day! Easy enough, eh? 😉 Happy November!

[video: youtube.com | information: wikipedia.com]

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Pointless Outfit Post

vintage shirt

vintage shirt

"office" shot

"office" shot

vintage boots

vintage boots

Well I’m at the office today! The bright and early time is 8 AM and since I’ll be alone until around 9-9:30 I decided to take advantage of the empty office by taking some shots of myself.

I also threw on a “leather” jacket I bought—and lost—my first semester of college. (Found it last weekend)

I don’t know if I ever got to talk about my new boots, though. I found them at Goodwill for $6 and, even though they’re not my first pick if I were to go boot-shopping I still really like them, and for $6 they’re worth it! They’re in great condition and I was more than happy to try them out on all these rainy days.

Okay, here’s another ‘attempt’ at late night/rainy photography work from Saturday’s concert:

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There’s nothing special about the shot. Unfortunately photos that came out semi-clear were the special ones.

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Rainy Weekend

This weekend was full of rain, pain, and…gain! Yes, I ended up having a fun weekend while surviving the constant drizzle.

On the way to a Modern Miracle gig, me and Tay stopped at the Longview Starbucks where I got a very terrible vanilla iced latte! I should know it was terrible since all I drank this summer were vanilla iced lattes so I’m practically a professional now! I must say Starbucks is just a lot of hype. I won’t totally down the place, because I know the worker–not the actual store–is to blame for my gross drink, but shouldn’t Star Bucks school at least teach their workers to stir the coffee/milk/syrup together before handing it off to the customer? I did pay almost $5.00 for the thing. ANYWAY…I didn’t mean to get so rude; it’s not like the coffee killed me–or even ruined my day in the least bit. =)

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As we got into Kilgore it, of course, was still raining (like it did all weekend) and the thought that kept running through my head was, “So…this is an OUTDOOR concert? At a park?” An outdoor concert at a park, it was–but the bands were set up underneath a really cool pavilion that shielded everything, nicely. The concert was hosted by DJ Thunder who really had on his heart to do ministries such as concerts and events. The night’s entertainment consisted of gospel, rap, and rock (and Modern Miracle–but we’ll just put them in the rock category, I guess) It was a fun evening despite the constant rain, and the rain was never really overbearing so we were fine. I met a lot of cool people who definitely had hearts for God. And there were definitely some characters, as well! One rapper–T.K. Star–was especially memorable. He had a very loud and crazy personality. He would come up to a person and start talking about his music, their music, ministry, God….he would go on and on and then before you could have a real conversation he would say, “I’m going to let you think about that.” and he would just walk away. It was so strange and funny. He was all over the place.

I suffered from an earache all night, on top of all the other pains of sickness, but I woke up Sunday morning just fine, so there was no complaining to my rainy concert! Goodness, though, the few photography skills I have apparently were lost with the sunny weather because I ended up deleting most of the photos from the show. Also I need an external flash and some lessons in taking night shots without runing the cool lighting effects. =) And photography lessons, period.

Charity--Click for more Photos

Charity--Click for more Photos

Our mini merch table

Our mini merch table

Our duct-tape mannequin

Our duct-tape mannequin

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Last Shred of Summer 2009

The last weekend of summer before I started Fall semester! Full of fun, I’d say.

Thursday: I worked Student Ambassadors for Fall Orientation and then headed over to Taylor’s band practice where I read the whole time! And, yay! Modern Miracle got their buttons in. 🙂 I love designing for them

Friday: Taylor and I grabbed our last summer meal from Joe Buck’s! =( I’ll have to go over there soon to get some coffee–I’m too addicted to give it up completely! Afterward, Taylor skipped out on the last few hours of work and we went to Longview, where we both bought pants(a short ranting blog about pants, later!), went to Mardel, then headed over to Tay’s house for dinner with his dad!

Saturday: Went with Tay to Carthage to record with Michael Martin from Shattered Light Photography:: http://www.myspace.com/shatteredlightphotography(who is also just really talented at everything; not just photography) We stayed there from around 3-11PM…a very loong day, but it was fun getting to hang out with Charity and listen to everyone recording.