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Super Moon of 2016

moon2I’ve fallen in love with nighttime photography. I took these photos in November of last year in our back garden. Photographing these blurry stars was a lesson in patience and being very still. When it warms up I will continue experimenting.3One of my fondest childhood memories is lying in the grassy yard at my grandparent’s house in the countryside. This particular night, the summer sun had just set and the warm Texan air was beginning to cool. All around me was the chirping symphony of a thousand nighttime orchestras. I remember lying there as if it were a dream. It wasn’t often I stayed outside in the dark, alone. But that night was mine. Looking up, the stars struck me as so clear and so vast. No man-made lights marred the view and I could’ve counted the small pinpoints of light all night long.

Long ago was that day, and life changes so rapidly. But when I find myself looking up on a particularly clear night, I am transported back to the humid summer evening of my childhood where my love of star gazing was born.moon14moon3


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Vacation 2014

My husband and I just got back from a really fun two week vacation! It feels good to be home but that two week break to see family and do whatever was so appreciated. Now that we’re back in the swing of things it’s full on PREPARE mode.

Friday we opened a new bank account that will make the transition to international banking easier. Today my husband will be putting the deposit down on our hopefully future flat in England and tomorrow we’ll be traveling to Dallas to have our fingerprints and other biometrics taken as the final step of the Visa application.

We also just bought suitcases! They’re the largest suitcases either of us have ever bought in our lives, yet in comparison with all the possessions I was thinking of bringing for a 3+ year stay, they are small!

I’m excited where all this heading! Tentative kick off date is September 10th…ish…

I will continue updating the blog on the process. Until then, here’s what we did on vacation!

Vacation Day 1 – I ended up working half a day to finish as much as I could on my giant to-do list, but after that we headed to Deep Ellum (Dallas) to see Antemasque and Le Butcherettes in concert. It was amazing! Antemasque’s energy was totally thrilling and Le Butcherettes—a girl vocalist/guitarist and a girl drummer? Yes please!

After the show we were stopped on the street by a man who showed us magic tricks and sold us a couple of t-shirts out of his backpack for $5. Totally legit. We then couch-surfed on our good friend’s couch.

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Vacation Day 2 – We watched Guardians of the Galaxy with our friend then began the travel to Texarkana, TX to visit another friend. Taylor and he caught up and had deep philosophical discussions over Starbucks for several hours before we headed out for a late night trek to Hot Springs, AK.

Vacation Day 3 – Waking up in Hot Springs at the old Angels in the Park hotel, we walked downtown for late morning breakfast before we visited our favorite spots in downtown Hot Springs. Lunch was a flight of locally brewed beers and hummus and dinner was our favorite German restaurant.

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Vacation Day 4 – We packed up early and headed to a Starbucks–the problem with taking a vacation in the middle of searching for overseas apartments and applying for visas is that there was always an email that needed to be responded to immediately so we took frequent Starbucks (aka wifi) breaks. We then mailed our parents some postcards then began a long trip all the way to South Carolina where we stopped at 1:30 am for a few short hours of sleep. For a late night snack I couldn’t resist buying the Lays Cappuccino Chips and a Starbucks frappuccino at a gas staion. The chips were not all that people made them out to be and the drink tasted like a bad batch of barbeque! Gas stations are hard to trust.

Vacation Day 5 – Four hours of sleep at a hotel and McDonald’s breakfast later, we were on the road again a few hours from our destination in North Carolina. When we arrived I met Taylor’s grandmother, great-aunt, uncle, aunt and cousin for the very first time. We also hadn’t seen his mom in 4-5 years. That night we stayed in a beach house, looking at old photos and catching up.

Vacation Day 6 – We spent the day with Taylor’s mom, aunt and cousin at the beach then the evening with his grandmother and uncle. Afterwards we headed to Raleigh, NC where we met with Taylor’s step dad. They bought us a room in a downtown hotel, which led to a lot of walking through the beautiful downtown area the next day.

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Vacation Day 7 – Waking up with room service coffee (just because we could), we ventured onto the streets of downtown and ended up at the North Carolina Natural History Museum. We explored downtown (found a coffee shop, of course) and then met back up with Taylor’s family for dinner out and the a trip to Krispy Kreme donuts.

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Vacation Day 8 – We began the day by walking to a cupcake shop for coffee and cupcakes! It was accidental thanks to wrong GPS directions, but it was a good stop nonetheless. Afterward, we traveled to Durham to meet with theologian Dr. Stanley Hauerwaus. Taylor and I (more so Taylor) love his work and forward thinking methods. We met him at Duke University in his office where they chatted about the future. He encouraged us on our journey to England and took a photo with us! The rest of the day, not gonna lie, was spent at a mall. Taylor found several outfits at H&M and some shoes, which he needed. We ended the day driving back to our hotel in pouring rain and had pizza delivered to our room.

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Vacation Day 9 – We traveled to Benson, NC after waking up at 6 am where Taylor’s mom showed us every home and landmark that had anything to do with Taylor’s childhood. It was interesting seeing a part of Taylor’s past. After breakfast we were introduced to Taylor’s old baby sitter then carted off with tons of drinks and ice. We then began what end up being 24 hours straight of being up.

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Vacation Day 10 – 6 am after driving 15 hours home, we made our way to our beds where we didn’t wake up until 12:30 in the afternoon and it was devine.

 


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Inside/Out: Issue 04 | Fear (A Collaborative Blog Hop!)

 

 

One of my favorite bloggers, Ashley from The Wine Stain, did a guest post on Clear The Way recently (you can read her outlook on ‘age’  here), which I absolutely loved. I ended up scrolling through more posts from CTW and found this Blog Hop!

Every month, Danielle + Kate team up for a collaborative series Inside/Out to share how a particular trait manifests in their own personal spaces – minds, hearts + spirits – and on the outside with others in their lives. I love that this is a blog hop and was welcome to join in by writing my own post  for Issue 04: Fear.insideout_fear-1-1

 

 INSIDE


My childhood was spent in much fear from my constant confusion in trying to figure out where I fit in in the world. I remember it fully started in the fifth grade when I chose to leave all my friends behind and go to the only middle school in town that offered advanced placement classes. I knew no one and really struggled finding friends. Most of the time I would hide in the bathroom or empty spots in the hallway during free time. I had been with the same few classmates since Kindergarten who were natural friends and didn’t know how to make friends with others. It caused me to be incredibly quiet, anti-social and awkward. That awkward part made it easy for some students and even a teacher to pick on me. There was constant inner turmoil that made me fear stepping outside of my own quiet thoughts and into this new world. (It wasn’t until I got into history fair, invention convention, and gifted and talented programs that I was able to slowly make a few friends. It took a while to understand how to use these tools of creativity to connect with people.) I think this was when I really started reflecting on being happy with myself. I struggled with the anxiety to fit in, but that struggle shaped me into who I am today.

OUT


Going back to learning the tools to use to connect with people;  I struggled with that all through junior high and high school as well. However, as I began to shape my interests (theatre, art, music…) I became close friends with people who had the same passions as me. It took me a long time to come out of my shell, but the more I put myself out there, the more I was comfortable with myself and with others.

Even today, I find myself constantly battling my inner introvert, not because I don’t like who I am, but because sometimes it’s easy to let that fear of wondering whether I fit in overcome me. The best thing I’ve learned is that I don’t have to fit in with anyone. Being happy with who I am and what I can contribute to society far outweighs any anxiety I may have. There are so many things I’m unafraid of, for instance this giant move to England coming up soon. I don’t cower in my shyness when I need to speak to people or go places. I cower when life requires me to open up just a bit more. I tend to keep a wall between people who could become close friends and myself. It’s a matter of letting go and allowing people to see me as a vulnerable person that I’m realizing and working on now.

YOUR TURN


1. Write your Inside/Out post, using the imagery provided if you’d like.
2. Choose “click here” + follow the instructions. Your post will show at the bottom of everyone’s post that uses the code, so you only need to enter once.
3. If you’d like to, use #insideoutfear on social media to promote your post.

Click here to enter your link and view the other amazing bloggers who joined in!

*Note: the above image should only be used for Inside/Out posts and proper credit for Lucky Number Seven + Clear the Way should be given. Click image for original source.