Mismatched Mess

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happy rainy birthday

It’s so cold and rainy today!

Such is my 20th birthday! I’ve been so tired and sluggish today—after work this morning I went back to my apartment and fell back asleep until my 1:00 class–and then I was a few minutes late to class!

So, not much has happened today. I’m just being really cold and sluggish and a little sick. After my 6:00pm class I’ll be going out to eat with my mom and that will be the adventure of my day!


My Saturday was fun, however! It was mardi gras in Jefferson and Racheal and Case were down from Missouri so we headed over to mardi gras to visit with them. I guess Tay and I aren’t mardi gras people. We ate lunch at sister, Victoria’s job, Kitt’s Kornbread, listened to an older man’s stories from being stationed in Korea, watched an old guitarist play a guitar he built, stood amongst leather clad bikers who were watching a rock band, visited an old hotel, and went to a house with art all over the walls and hung out. Oh and Tay and I went to ETBU’s Opera, Hansel and Gretal. So I’m not sure we did much mardi gras related activities, but it was a very fun day!

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Ah, January as flown right by us, hasn’t it?

Although February is just a day away, why does it seem like my classes are just dragging by? My classes have gotten such a slow start. And it’s unfortunate to say that I’m not that interested in any of the subjects I’m taking. However all three of the classes (I have four classes, but one is an intro. class I have to take and I don’t have to go to class, just check in) are important and directly related to my major; Adobe InDesign–perfect for magazine spreads, Adobe Captivate–similar to PowerPoint but more in depth, and Digital Video–records and edits video. Yikes. All three are important—they’re just different from my photoshop so I’m being lazy about wanting to learn them. Ah well….

So on the coldest day of January (literally!) I attempted a photoshoot with Modern Miracle. It was a rather unfortunate photoshoot. It was so cold and I wasn’t making any progress!! I got literally 4 or 5 photos that are temporarily “useable.” As soon as the weather warms we’ll attempt another photoshoot!


At the Office

I’m alone at the office for now and I’ve been facebooking and youtubing!

Today has been a fairly mellow day. I should be working on all my big blog posts I have planned! I honestly have several posts but I need to take the time to write them all down!

Here are my upcoming ideas:

-Christianity In Crisis-My Thoughts
-Tributes! ( I may have several of these)

This weekend is going to be fun! CharityWright & Nathan Lenox are getting married on Saturday and me and Tay are going to be in the wedding. This will be my first official wedding, ever. I’ve never been a flower girl or bridesmaid or even cake-cutter. So, I am a bridesmaid for the first time.

Of course I’ll be snapping photos the whole weekend! I’ll be spending my Friday helping with decorations and, of course, the rehearsal. I just hope I don’t CRY at the rehearsal!It is becoming a well-known fact that I cry at every wedding! (I may have recently posted something like this) Those redneck weddings on television? You know the ones that completely ruin everything beautiful and sacred about weddings? I at least tear up when watching those! I’m a sucker for marriage, I guess? That’s why my own wedding will only consist of me saying “I do.” and nothing else. Because if I’m not bawling I know I’m going to be struggling to hold back the bawling. (Not that there is an upcoming wedding for me…just sayin’)

Anyway, that got completely off topic…after the rehearsal in Harleton we’ll be heading to Marshall to eat at Golden Chorale—what spelling does that place use? Then the bridesmaids and bride will either be heading to a hotel or someone’s house to spend the night together! Fun times. 🙂

Ah…one more hour of work. It’s raining on and off today. I hope it’s not raining after work or I’ll have to walk back in the rain! (Yes, I know my last two posts were about me loving the rain. Don’t hate. 😉 )


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This is not a dorm room, nor a bed.

But the soft, clean grass–green, new.

As I lay relaxed, entranced, enthralled,

I feel the beauty of the night.

The beauty of the rain.

Falling gently and bravely.

Refreshing memory,

Washing away the smudges of worry, doubt, fear.

Allowing the total and complete abandonment of the stained garment in which we live;

Pulling over our heads the crisp, clean thought of a new day.

The rain does this to me. Nearly everytime. =) I am no poet, as you can see–merely a thinker.

Here are more rainy day thoughts from me:
Click to read: After the Rain Comes New Life

[10 Feb 2009 | Tuesday]

after the rain comes new life.

Imagine this rain pelting down on me, the lonely yellow flower,
or weed, you can call me whatever you like.
But…just imagine this rain, drenching me and soaking into the pores of my wilted stalk, and very ungently weighing the fragile yellow petals closer to the dark, drenched soil.
Mud-stained rain pools around my withered roots like a murder victim’s claim to death.
And all the while I feel as if I’m drowning in someone else’s lake of fire.
I only now did notice the soft, spongy texture where my roots desperately feed; secretly reviving my soul, pumping oxygen into my metaphorical heart, and bringing color to the saddest part of me.

Click to read: Steady Now

[27 May 2008 | Tuesday]

steady, now

“One more day to waste away,” the little girl sitting beside me on the bumpy subway sullenly shares. She is dressed in a gray trenchcoat with a matching beret.

The rain beats a continuous hum on my heart as I rush away from underground to the nearest magazine stand featuring the latest gossip and drag.

The new air has become more of a smog stuck in my lungs. I am carried away through the sea of grays and umbrellas to a quaint landing where birds brave the beating drops of water and continue to flutter in small circles forward and backward.

I stare a few blocks ahead of my beating heart and see through the rain exactly what my heart most desired in this dreary new land. Or what I thought it would like to desire. But now I forget why I ever wanted and dreamed of such a foggy mist and why I ever thought the horizon could provide anything greener, richer, more beautiful.

I didn’t ever mind the rain or the smog or the little girl.
I didn’t ever believe that life was here to waste; the days were here to mourn.

I could’ve latched onto the new, popular dreariness hitting down on every American home searching for the idyllic American Dream. I just didn’t let my soul become sucked up by the aliens who pretend to know happiness and the foriegners who sold happiness on the street corners.

I didn’t think they really had happiness to give away to me, so I walked on by their venues paved with gold. I could barely recognize the fear and the pain and the truth etched into the gold veneer.

I laugh and cry as I think I was so close to being one of the millions of unsatisfied customers who sell away their hopes and continue reaching into their ever-emptying pockets for more unhappiness.
But I just never let the fog enter too close to my heart.

In reading old blog posts on myspace I realized that I can WRITE! And yes that statement can be viewed as bragging, but hear me out: If I put my mind to it I can actually put thoughts and words together very beautifully. So there is no excuse why I write such nonsense. My words no longer hold beauty. Come on, now, Alyssa—find some beauty in your words again.


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Cute Things!!

So I have at least three blogs I need to start writing on; I just haven’t gotten around to it! But, here’s something I wanted to share with everyone! It’s so cute!

<a href=”http://www.cutethingsfallingasleep.org”>Cute Things Falling Asleep</a><br />

Okay, it’s kind of pointless–but it’s still adorable! Here’s a few vids you can see from the blog:

I saw this blog on TV and decided to check it out! Yes, like I said before—very pointless! And after watching a ton of these videos I found myself dozing off and took a too-long nap!

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Another Summer Ended

Well the summer holiday is coming, once again, to a close and so much happened to me during these few months!

It has definitely been a learning experience for me. I took three classes this summer—which I won’t get into since I have one more final tomorrow and then that will be the end (!)—so I was living on campus; poor, lazy, and busy!

Let’s start with “poor.”

I designed a few flyers for concerts this summer for design experience and a little money. Of course I love designing so this was tons of fun for me. However, one person gave me a check with a large amount of money that ended up bouncing, leaving my bank account in the negative numbers! They paid me back within a matter of days, but by that time the bank had added a $25 fee for every money transaction I made due to insufficent funds.

For weeks I got by on next to nothing and dipping into my loan refund and worked at the school whenever I could! So, thank God that is taken care of now, although I still have hardly anything! I’m grateful for what I DO have because it’s just fine for all I need!

Now onto the “lazy.”

AHHH! I have been so lazy this summer!!! But I’m FINALLY almost back on track–my roommates and I cleaned the apartment and my room is fluctuating between clean and what I like to call ‘lived in.’

I’ve been so busy this summer! Classes, work, mangaing a band, bridesmaid duties, designing, Florida trip, mini-tours, church camp! It’s been such a fun summer spent with friends and family and meeting new people! It seems I’m always doing something–never stopping! But I’ve enjoyed it that way and wouldn’t change this summer at all!

The summer was a blast and it has got me really ready for fall and the fall semester! Of course, living in Texas with our crazy weather, probably shouldn’t hold my breath for the fall season to roll around…It’ll cool off a bit, but East Texas weather is only predictable in that you KNOW it’ll be unpredictable!

Speaking of fall, though—I am very ready to start wearing my fall clothes. Those are my favorite kinds of clothes! And my summer wardrobe is tired. Or rather, I’m growing weary of summer attire—give me a great cardigan or cute dress—and boots! lol