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New Home | Writing Day 11

12 tears old. A time of energy, growth and happiness. The previous age–11–was the exact opposite. New school, new home, no friends. At 11 I remember arriving early to school and not knowing where to go. Every single day. I remember science class, my new teacher turning to the news on September 11th, 2001 and watching my new classmates cry. I remember rushing to the computer after school, trying to find more information about the twin towers. 11 was a year of fear. 11 was a year of silence. 11 was the year my math teacher told me I was terrible.

But at 12, things were looking up.

I finally found friends. I was involved in clubs and projects and had settled into a new house. We didn’t stay there long.  We moved again soon after. But, like with all childhood memories, some moments stick out.

I remember sharing a room with all of my siblings. But I don’t remember it bothering me. My fondest memory is standing in front of the mirror in that room, with the fan blowing my hair and singing ‘I Could Not Ask For More’ into a hairbrush. I didn’t even like country music.

I remember discovering Hot Cheetos. I could eat bags of them. I’d get in trouble for doing that. I still pride myself on my love of spicy foods and sauces.

I remember one room in the house that was ‘under construction’ the entire time. The floors were original wood. So original that the floor still had a faint red pattern in the shape of a rug. It was painted there long ago. That was to be my room when it was finished. It never was. I didn’t complain.

I remember having a trampoline in the back yard. That was fun. But then I remember the time we were warned that it wasn’t a safe neighborhood. It became less fun after that.

I remember the dogwood tree in the front yard. We rarely went to the front yard. But in the springtime, it was beautiful.

I remember getting my first hair cut at 12. I remember going to the mall…not the mall in town with two stores and a Blue Cross in it; the mall in the ‘big’ city. I bought $300 worth of clothes and felt so guilty. I tried not to ever do that again. I kept those clothes separate from all my other ones. Neatly folded in a large shopping bag right by my bed.

At 12 I remember having late night adventures with friends. I remember the internet really started making sense. (I remember Neopets). I remember I was in enough advanced English and History clubs and school projects that I could get out of math class. I skipped most of math class actually. My new math teacher–the one who might have helped me enjoy math at 11 (before I had given up because I was “terrible”)–was too nice to fail me.

I remember packing up and moving away. I don’t remember protesting. I don’t remember being sad about leaving my new found friends. I just remember starting over at 13; new town, new house, no friends. But I was less silent and more ready this time around.


Today’s Prompt: Where did you live when you were 12 years old? Today’s twist: pay attention to your sentence lengths and use short, medium, and long sentences.

I know I’m showing my age with this post and I know it’s most likely considered ‘young!’: 9/11, the brand new snack Hot Cheetos, the Internet had chat rooms and games….

Oh and in other news: don’t be a jerk to kids. That shapes their future. I tried really hard at math, but still struggled and that teacher basically gave me an excuse to just give up completely.

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I Was A Band Roadie

Modern Miracle Crammed in the third row of a vehicle hooked up to a trailer of music equipment, I rode the miles of open highway to our first destination. It was time to tour. Get out. Stretch. Divvy up hotel room beds. Then back in the third row, travelling to the gig.

It was usually a small church, or an outside venue. Sometimes we performed to a massive crowd, other times…not. Get out. Set up. Cables and guitars, drum kits and sound checks. And me. T-shirts and stickers, SD cards and tripods. I was a roadie. Girlfriend to a guitarist and absolutely crazy in love with this band.

When I became part of the Modern Miracle family, I was immediately enamored. The energy and excitement to hear their music, to see my boyfriend perform…I was inspired.

38102_412366495669_3548101_nRight out of high school with a new laptop and Photoshop Elements, just beginning my college courses on multimedia, I had the desire to create something beautiful for this band. I sat in my dorm room listening to their music on repeat attempting to create something that expressed the emotion of the lyrics. I don’t think I’d look back at my first attempts to use Photoshop without training and call it a masterpiece…but I learned to use it through my passion for this Christian band.

As my place in the family grew, I started photographing them in concerts and photo shoots. Then I started creating t-shirts and posters and banners. I became interested in re-designing their Myspace page. If anyone remembers, the classic Myspace had a lot of really great features, if you knew html. So I learned html. I spent hours perfecting their page, creating a beautiful aesthetic. I eventually began creating Myspace page layouts for several bands. I had, perhaps, a year of html experience under my belt before I first took a class on it. Through the beauty of music, I had come into my calling.

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Modern Miracle was a constant source of inspiration for me. The lyrics were poetic stories ready to be unraveled, the music was a strong force to be reckoned with, the band members were a multi-talented family willing to do what it took to get their music out there. For me, the songs were worship. I felt connected to God by listening to them. And I knew my work was worship, too. I worked to create beautiful pieces of art and I worshiped God while doing it. By art, I mean Myspace layouts and t-shirt designs…but it was all for God.

Let our dancing feet set fire with the powers of your Holy Spirit.
We are anointing every word we say. Let it resonate.

I’ve never been so connected to music before or after this band. I appreciate music; the talent, the energy, the effort. There are a few bands I love. But there’s a difference.

With Modern Miracle, there was a raw passion that went straight through me. All the hours spent at band practices and concerts. The time forming bonds with each of them. The late night work sitting on my dorm bed creating. The connection my boyfriend (now husband–plot twist!) and I made when we talked about this group.

Seasons change, life happens. I wouldn’t trade anything to go back, but I do miss that time of my life. I miss the people, especially. Perhaps that’s what caused such an emotional response—having the band members there, laughing and joking; creating unique, original music. Music that held their talents and skill; their pain and joy. I didn’t just listen or watch, they didn’t just play and sing, we grew into who we are now…and we did it together.

Turn from the world. Double portion for shame.
Suffer your own cross for spiritual gain.


This was part of theWriting 101’s Blogging University. The prompt: Write about the three most important songs in your life — what do they mean to you? – (No. hehe)
All photos by me. ‘Diamond Palace’ video credit to D2S Records. Quoted lyrics are from the videos that follow them. Listen to one more song they never got to record!


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Our Life in Canterbury | The First Four Days

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We finally made it! It feels like we’ve been waiting forever to begin this part of our life.
Over a year ago I wrote this post regarding the realization of the possibility of moving far away for Taylor’s PHD.
Little did I know then that we would end up in the UK!

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Day 1 | Tuesday
Our trip to Canterbury, Kent, England was actually really easy and pleasant. We spent the day at the airport with my mom, sister and father in law.
We had lunch at the Hyatt dining room then said our final goodbyes.

Once we got on the plane our last meal in America was flying over one of the great lakes nearest Canada. We then watched a movie, slept and tried to make the most of our 9 hour trip.

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Day 2 | Wednesday
Arriving in London Heathrow airport was a smooth process. Thankfully we found a cart to carry our 150ish pounds of luggage. Taylor bought a simple cell phone to contact our landlady, withdrew a little more money from an ATM, then we headed out to grab a taxi.
The trip in the taxi was really nice. We didn’t get to go through London, because the traffic was too bad, so we took the road around it. It took about an hour and half to travel to Canterbury in which time we enjoyed joking with the taxi driver about American and British stereotypes and learned a lot about England history. The driver was so nice and interesting. He actually lived in Kent as well (our address is Canterbury, Kent, UK) and talked about his children. His son has his own business putting together massive (15-20,000 people) techno dance events and his daughter was a model who was actually in Toni and Guy’s London Fashion Week’s runway show that same day.

So, this is where the first day in England loses its…charm. The taxi driver brings us to the flat we put a deposit on online. After waiting 30 minutes the landlady pulls up and was in complete shock there were two of us. We walk up to the place and it’s not what we were told at all! We knew it was going to be small, but it was way smaller than we thought it was. But it wasn’t just our error–the online realtor told us this place was for two people when it clearly is not, not to mention the fact the landlady didn’t even read the agreement and Taylor’s numerous emails stating there were two people.
I won’t go into the details, but we haven’t signed the lease yet and we are looking at other flats in the area already. Hopefully we will be out of here soon.

Because of the shock of the flat, jet lag and the time difference, we just collapsed on the bed and slept for several hours. Once we woke up we walked downtown and found a Pizza Hut that offered Wifi and contacted our family.
We then went to a nearby store owned by Wal-Mart for some basic necessities.

Look how exhausted we were!

Look how exhausted we were!

Day 3 | Thursday
The third day brought a couple more issues, but we felt a little better. We found a coffee shop for the wifi–it’s very nerve-wracking being totally reliant on Wifi to contact people! We then decided to take out more money from an ATM and…it stole our card! Fear ensued when we realized there were issues with our cards and only had a little cash with us. We bought some very cheap items to make sandwiches and splurged on a portable Wifi card so that we could sort out all these issues in the apartment instead of at a restaurant.

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Day 4 | Friday
Friday Taylor and his dad worked on sorting out our bank issues in America. It took most of the day, but it was finally fixed, though we still don’t feel 100% comfortable using the debit card we still have. As that was happening we walked up to the University of Kent where Taylor will be attending. The walk was not what we expected as the traffic was horribly busy and the trip was uphill. Once we got to the school we walked around for about an hour, but couldn’t accomplish anything until the following day. We didn’t want to walk back so we decided to try out a doubledecker bus for the first time. It was so simple and took us to the city centre right near our flat.

Day 5 | Saturday
Taylor walked back to the school and registered Saturday morning. We then spent the rest of the day finally fully relaxing and enjoying the fact that we were in England! We ate tacos and window shopped all around the city centre.

We’ve had so many issues, but now that we are more comfortable it’s really exciting being here! We will be tourists in our own city for a long time. The city centre is so busy with so much history. Once we get UK cell phones (smart phones) we will be much more connected. Our wifi is very limited and we’re trying to save our money until we get a UK bank and hopefully a new flat! Then we’ll be able to do much more exploring! We still can’t believe this is our life now and are so blessed to be here. The issues we are facing are annoying and stressful, but we know it will be settled soon!

We’ve had fun comparing the shops and TV stations. Everything is similar just with different names:

Stores:
ASDA – owned by Wal-Mart and looks like Wal-Mart
Big Box – Big Lots
TK Maxx – TJ Maxx

TV Shows:
Funniest Ever – You’ve Been Framed! – America’s Funniest Home Videos

Food:
Walkers Crisps – Lays Chips

Slang:
Tea (or tea time) – Lunch time
Quid – Cash
One off – One-time (example: one-time fee)


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Finishing Up a Chapter

Sometimes you have a wonderful story to tell. You think long and hard about the story process—how the beginning shall begin, how the middle will raise expectations and excite the minds, and how the end will pull the whole thing together into a beautiful, inspiring conclusion.

And sometimes you have a week like this:

-Three final projects due by tomorrow
-Aton of cleaning
-A ton of packing
-A ton of moving
-A ton of responsibilities that have been put off

So. Oh, also, I’m tired. Sleep deprived. But, since I can’t work on my projects because I’m at work, I’ve decided to take a little break and do some online shopping for SUMMER CLOTHING:

I love this tunic. Forever21 $8.80

A simple, lovely tank. Not too tight or short. Forever21 $7.90

An awesome romper. I’m wary to buy rompers, because I have a longer torso, but this one is stretchy! Forever21 $9.80

AND FOR MY DO-IT-YOURSELF FIX:

You can buy this shirt, sure, but it appeals to my D.I.Y. nature(and I could make it for cheaper!) Forever21 $13.80

Ok. This slashed tee is a bit much. But I do like the idea. Definitely going to D.I.Y. it Forever21 $11.80

Oh and to explain the list—I’m moving out of the campus apartments. I’m moving in with my Mamaw and finishing out the last semester of college there. Once I move in there, I’m really not sure at all what my plans are. I hope to find a summer job, save up some money, start planning my wedding, and graduate college. After graduation…whew. More scariness. I hope to dive straight into my work field–searching for a job that can start my career in design. That…is very scary.


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happy rainy birthday

It’s so cold and rainy today!

Such is my 20th birthday! I’ve been so tired and sluggish today—after work this morning I went back to my apartment and fell back asleep until my 1:00 class–and then I was a few minutes late to class!

So, not much has happened today. I’m just being really cold and sluggish and a little sick. After my 6:00pm class I’ll be going out to eat with my mom and that will be the adventure of my day!

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My Saturday was fun, however! It was mardi gras in Jefferson and Racheal and Case were down from Missouri so we headed over to mardi gras to visit with them. I guess Tay and I aren’t mardi gras people. We ate lunch at sister, Victoria’s job, Kitt’s Kornbread, listened to an older man’s stories from being stationed in Korea, watched an old guitarist play a guitar he built, stood amongst leather clad bikers who were watching a rock band, visited an old hotel, and went to a house with art all over the walls and hung out. Oh and Tay and I went to ETBU’s Opera, Hansel and Gretal. So I’m not sure we did much mardi gras related activities, but it was a very fun day!


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January

Ah, January as flown right by us, hasn’t it?

Although February is just a day away, why does it seem like my classes are just dragging by? My classes have gotten such a slow start. And it’s unfortunate to say that I’m not that interested in any of the subjects I’m taking. However all three of the classes (I have four classes, but one is an intro. class I have to take and I don’t have to go to class, just check in) are important and directly related to my major; Adobe InDesign–perfect for magazine spreads, Adobe Captivate–similar to PowerPoint but more in depth, and Digital Video–records and edits video. Yikes. All three are important—they’re just different from my photoshop so I’m being lazy about wanting to learn them. Ah well….

So on the coldest day of January (literally!) I attempted a photoshoot with Modern Miracle. It was a rather unfortunate photoshoot. It was so cold and I wasn’t making any progress!! I got literally 4 or 5 photos that are temporarily “useable.” As soon as the weather warms we’ll attempt another photoshoot!


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So close…

…to finishing school!

That’s what I must keep in my thoughts these last two semesters as I endure 6pm-9pm classes every night! I was so busy on this first day of Spring classes I didn’t give a fleeting thought to wedding plans! Nooo!

However, by the end of the night I was back on my go-to blogs scouting out cool ideas and thinking reaaaal hard on what our wedding party/attendants invitations should look like.

This weekend Tay and I stopped by Michael’s craft store and went crazy on stamps and ink. Although I can do so much on Photoshop (and I plan on doing a lot of designing) we both want a more personal touch for our paper products. Because we’re doing a ton of DIY projects, I don’t want to overwhelm ourselves with super intricate DIY invitations, but stamps seemed just right to add a personal ‘hand made’ touch.

And finally, some photos:

This is the famous antique mini sewing kit in which Tay hid my engagement ring. So sweet 🙂


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Sweatshirts!

Ah!

I have so much to talk about…to relay, in a journal-like fashion so that I can stumble across this very post and say, “Hey you know what? I did that on that day.” And really why else would I be blogging?

However. It is nearing 1 AM and I’m super tired so for now I’m going to do a quick recap of everything && hopefully go into further detail on another near-future day.

1. 11AM-1PM: Had a successful yet nerve-wrecking errands run. Got a lot accomplished just in time for class 🙂

2. 12:40PM: Around this time on my errands run I’m being held up by Wal-Mart security: long-story-short: an unopened flashdrive given to me by my boss sets off the door alarms && Wal-Mart thinks I was trying to steal. They chose not to believe me until they saw me NOT EVEN GO INTO THE electronics department before they let me go. Just doing their job, but a bit inconvienent.

3. 1:02: A bit late for class because of Wal-Mart scandal (hold onto your purses, ladies & look out for me!) My group’s website was due & we had no clue. I pulled an entire website out in about 30 minutes. Yay group. 🙂

4. 5-8:30PM: Head to my FIRST Marshall football game–for my little brother, Devin (8th grade). Good seeing some family, and snapped tons of photos. Luckily it was their homecoming so my step-brother, Johnathan (9th grade) was also playing in the band for a high school pep rally. Unfortunately I couldn’t get too many shots of him, but it was fun watching. (definitely a post about my first football game will be in order ;))

5. My lovely cousin, Katy is going to be a mime for halloween & I really wanted to make the mini top hat she had in mind, so she let me! Photos of that coming soon, as well. It’s cute. 🙂

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6. I want to wear this outfit. Of course, it’s an Olsen. Yes, I just did a post about them. I just really want to wear this outfit. Today I bought a sweatshirt and leggings…I had a belt. If only the weather would cool down just a smidgen more. And because I don’t have my camera close by to show you any photos of my version of the outfit…I’ll show ya what I’ve been looking at.

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chic1chic2chic3 What do you think about this 80/90’s trend? Idk…sweatshirt& leggings…i like it. 🙂

Good night, all. Cooler, more hip, happenin’ posts comin’ soon. 😉


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Silly Thoughts

I’m silly.

The rain isn’t going away, but the sun and blue skies are definitely giving the rain a run for their money. And it’s making me sad that there’s a very bright sun out there right now and the clouds—aren’t gone but—are white/light gray. It’s because I wholeheartedly accepted this rain and gray and cold. I really did. And I’m only a little, tiny, tad bit embarrassed to say it’s mainly because I am ready for FALL CLOTHES. =) It’s almost hot enough out there right now to make me take off my cardigan. Sigh. I’m a mess, I know. 😉

Short post…class at 1! Here’s a really bad quality-bad lighting webcam shot of today’s outfit. Of course, I’m sporting my tall boots and leather jacket as well. 😉

Sun, Sun go away…I love you–I do–just not today! 🙂

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First Week of Fall Semester

I had an extremely interesting, emotional roller coaster kind of first week of fall semester!

I started my Monday morning at a very early 8 am–I had a very long free time since my first class didn’t start until 1 PM. I had a really great morning–Coffee, strawberry strudel, yoga….

Well, the first surprise of the Monday happened when I showed up for my class and the instructor (who is also my advisor) informs me that I can’t take that class until I take the first part of it! So, I spent my class period at my mom’s office and changing my schedule–or, well, dropping a class—so my Mondays and Wednesdays are open, now!

After that excitement, I head back to my dorm and I’m stopped by my boss’s boss (I work at the school as a student worker). She gives me a short version of a story that basically leaves me with this: “You need to choose another job to be transferred to.” Very confused, I promptly head over to my boss to see if she can straighten out my, well, confusion. She informs me she was kind of left out of the decision but she was guessing it had something to do with me not planning student activities like I should. Hmmmm…so of course I rush back over to my mom to vent–and see if her department has a student worker opening (they don’t)–and then also head over to another department who would potentially ‘take me in.’ Because she likes my design work, she would love to hire me–just one problem: she has no budget! So I’m frantically trying to put these pieces together: I’m being transferred, I wasn’t doing my work, Nobody can take me in: ding, ding, ding: that must mean I’m fired!

Anyway, for the next day and half I sort of mope around thinking I’m fired. Tuesday was bittersweet because of this–it was good finally going to two of my classes but, hello–I didn’t have a job! Tuesday night was great because me and Tay went to Applebee’s where we just enjoyed catching up on the first two days of class.

Wednesday morning was a fun one: I got coined by the TSTC President! It’s not much, but my mom was telling me that the military coined people for good deeds and, because the President was in the military, he wanted to also have a coin to give people. So I guess it’s sort of an honor, for all the designs I did for the school. I was also informed by my boss that I wasn’t fired! It’s still very hard to explain, but the main thing is that I wasn’t fired. Whew! Just a miscommunication. More info. on my ‘coining’ here:

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Thursday: Well, both of my classes were cancelled. hah
Friday: I have a class with Clifton! He’s mine and Tay’s friend from Joe Bucks (of course we know him from school & his church too!) haha…I’m glad it was the first class day and nothing majorly important was going on…it was kind of awkward watching him doze off…I’m going to have to draw on him next time.

How was everyone’s first week of…whatever? Or was it just another day in the life of you? 🙂